just writing this scared me

i've never spoken most of what i feel
because i'm terrified of brain drugs
i've learnt to fake an evenness of keel
because i'm terrified of brain drugs
my gp's on a uni campus 200 miles away
and i've not been there since registration day
because i'm terrified of brain drugs

although there's stigma i am not ashamed
i'm just terrified of brain drugs
i'm not protecting someone who i blame
i'm just terrified of brain drugs
there are people i love too much to want to see distressed
but that's not the the reason there's so much i can't confess
i'm just terrified of brain drugs

i don't know how much brain they might adjust
that's why i'm terrified of brain drugs
i couldn't muster that level of trust
that's why i'm terrified of brain drugs
i wouldn't part with the hardest of the feelings that i feel
if i had to trade the certainty that who i am is real
that's why i'm terrified of brain drugs